i cried for the umpteen times

Baby ,
Ever since we hang up ,
i couldn't help crying .
Not silently to myself,
but out loud .
Everytime i shed my tears for you ,
know that they were not unfeeling .
I can feel every inch of pain in every drop of it dropping .
Really feel it .
Likewise for now .
I wonder to myself if you are really sleeping,
like what you stated over the message .
Can you even catch a wink in peace ?
Or are you feeling the same pain as i do ?
You know that you can't be here for me now .
But why ?
Tell me why,
would you still want to make me feel so miserable and cry ?
Do you know how i yearn for your hug now ?
The way you push my head to your chest and stroke my hair .
The feeling's so comforting .
But now ,
it's different ,
Army had us separated .
I have to learn to comfort myself .
Because you can't be here ...
Sitting all alone on my bed,
tears dropping as i complete my entry .
Longing for your existence right now .